Reflections on Canim Lake

The old miner’s cabin sits on the west bank, jutting out just above the water line. Smoke from the brick chimney silently rises in the frosty autumn air, sure evidence the ol’ digger is still lingering by the warmth of his iron stove.

Sitting in the wicker recliner, he jabs at the glowing coals with a crooked poker thrust through the stove’s open door. The embers responded with fits of angry sparks which quickly race up the glowing flue. 

The smoke hangs heavily over the lake bringing the distinct aroma of back bacon, beans and maple syrup. The old man clenches his pipe stem tighter between his teeth then slowly relaxes his aching body into the shape of the wicker’s well-worn bottom and oddly angled back. His head tilts up enough to allow his gaze to easily find the split pine beams, the pealing-varnished white spruce ceiling and the dusty rafters colored by age.

He clearly recalls their every detail: the smell of fresh cut wood, the sounds of hammers, the chatter as he and his partner cut them by hand. Though long ago he can still feel the pull of the Swiss saw, the rhythm in its swing, the stinging sweat running into his eyes. He can still hear the mallets driving the wedges and forming the straight, long planks.

Sixty-years-worth of memories flutter in random disorder through his mind. 

As his eyes close, he is sure he can still hear the loons laughing out in the misty, open water, trying to hide their loneliness. They wait, then call again. Waiting for an answer that never comes. 

Now, in memory, he is making the long familiar trip down the lake in the heavily ore-loaded canoe. He feels the spray from the windswept waves as they spank the boat’s sides for thinking they could pass with impunity. 

An excited pair of coyotes chasing a jack rabbit break out of the bush and onto the sandy beach. Then they suddenly stop and retreat quickly. By instinct they have felt – more than seen – the Osprey leave his high, treetop nest and swiftly zoom towards them with his powerful, terrible talons open wide. They scurry quickly. The Osprey never misses.

His mind also remembers the clear, dark skies. Night happens as if someone has pulled a blanket over the heavens. Only tiny holes in the fabric let bits of light shine through. They are a sign he always watches for, the assurance there is still a God in the bright Heavens. He will send the warm sun back to earth again in the dawn, as he has always done.

The black, jagged silhouette of pines against the purple and mauve sky frame the bright reflection of the full moon, like a yellow skid mark across the lake’s otherwise undisturbed surface.

He hears the crunching under his feet of the empty spruce cones and dry fir needles as his memory retraces quiet walks along the autumn shoreline. So many discussions together, so many problems resolved, so many dreams planned. His eyes tear when he tries, but can no longer remember her face, her voice, her touch, or what they had talked about. It was all so long ago. Like pine trees, their branches frantically waving  in vain to try to stop the wild winds, he too finds it impossible to hang on to the past. 

The fire in the old stove has gone out. It is cold as he awakes. His stiff muscles complain from being cramped so long in the recliner. He carefully makes his way to the door, steadying himself on whatever is in his path. As he stoops in the open door of the cabin, he sees clearly down to the lake and the bend in the shoreline where the water becomes lost from view. How many times has he struggled to paddle round that bend in heavy headwinds?

A flock of Canada geese come in low over the water but continue to the fields beyond. They honk their excitement as they spot some grain still left for them to feast on. 

He can see the brown earth swaths in the fields, warmed by sunlight. How many times has he let the rich brown soil slowly filter through his gnarled fingers while marveling how Mother Nature never wastes anything. Everything will eventually be reclaimed once more. He holds that thought in his mind for a moment, reminding himself that Mother Earth will someday have her claim even on him as well. Someday, someday… 

But the young boy still inside him smiles as he says out loud to himself, “Yes, someday, someday. But not today. Today you’ll have to wait!”

The creaky door closes, boards squeak and in a few minutes smoke once more begins to rise silently from the old brick chimney – just as it has done for so many years.

– Doug Garrett

Unfinished

God left the world unfinished, placed man in it unskilled.
He left the voltage in the clouds, the sands with oil filled.
He left the rivers running wild, untamed with power leaping,
The cities waiting to be built, the pregnant forest sleeping.

Raw nature was the gift he gave to strengthen man – not soften,
To sweat man’s brow, to sear his soul, to test and try him often.
What will you find? What will you build? What mystery uncover?
The will of God, the role of man – all waiting to discover.

-Doug Garrett

The Weathered Stump

The old weathered stump in the clear meadow stood in a state of advanced decay.
The grass waved their head as they laughed at this dead, grey relic from some other day.
True, the blow that shattered its once lofty trunk has long been forgotten and gone.
But the gnarled, grey wood, moss covered, still stood – defiant, majestic and strong.

The roots to the south, away from the winds, where few take the time to stray,
One day caught a breeze which, slowed by the squeeze, dropped a seed from a pine far away.
Encircled around by the grey and the brown of the trunk, the seed came to rest.
In a hollow all warm, away from the storm, and the wind, and the snow cross the crest.

The soil, all rich from the rotting grey hulk, was eager its bounty to share.
Soon up in the root came a tender young shoot from the seed that was nestling there.
Then came the day when the clouds blew away, that a sapling stood solid with spunk.
While there all around the grass on the ground lay the last remains of the trunk.

The old stump gave that the pine live, but the seed brought the life that it bore.
Yet who at the last, a judgment could cast, as to which to the pine meant the more?

The Tree

Tall tree, long tree. Dark, stark and strong tree.

Blowing green, showing sheen, growing in my lawn tree.

Frilly head, hilly bed. Orange heaped with leaves spread.

Chosen wisp, frozen crisp. Sleep until the spring tree.

The Untamed, Unnamed in the Night

From a hill near our farm, on a cool autumn day, I watched the wild geese winging by,
I heard the bronzed leaves from the cotton wood trees, catch a breeze, which hissed a good-by.
I closed my eyes tight as I felt my cheeks bright, from the rays of the red, setting ball.
The beauty so rare, left me awed and aware of God’s Country, The North, in the fall.

A marsh just below, shimmered bright in the glow of a sky that reflected its charm.
Then rested my mind on a sudden strange find, that startled my thoughts with alarm.
There were prints all around, in the mucky wet ground, of the paws of the thirsty, untamed,
Who pranced with delight in the dead of the night, then vanished, unknown and unnamed?

The wind on the hill, felt suddenly chill as I sensed them speaking quite clear:
“By whose leave did you claim the right to remain, when you hold no privileges here?”
There’s many disputes, but these were mere brutes, with no rights to which mortals love best.
Still the hot truth remained, It was I who’d be shamed, taking spoils from those dispossessed. 

Their howls have oft times swept over my farm, long after the darkness would fall.
I wondered what love in the vastness above, understood or could answer their call?
The sun now had set and I felt no regret as I willingly relinquished the right,
To those left on the hill, whose rights are theirs still, unnamed, untamed in the night. 

-Doug Garrett