Alone

I pray in my own Gethsemane, far from my Saviour’s tomb.
I’m down on my knees as I sob my pleas, alone in a dim lit room.

Though the blood doesn’t pour from my every pore. like my Saviour shed for me,
The tears it seems, shed their steady streams, from my eyes that no longer see.

It takes times like this, then it happens: a broken heart is made whole.
His love is felt, by the words that melt the ice from a troubled soul.

He speaks to me at length of strength, and a time so long ago,
When he offered free his gift to me, and I feel my spirit glow.

When I rise with the dawn, my trials are gone, and I feel the warmth of his light.
The sins of my past are forgiven at last, and are left with the dark of the night.

-Doug Garrett

My Child

For Rowan (1978)

Above my child’s bed I stand and stare.
How peaceful, how angelic lying there.

Yet was it not this very night,
Not waiting nor listening to his plight 
I swept his reaching arms aside,
All reason gone, my patience tried?

His hands now tucked between his knees and clasped,
What part of my feelings had he grasped?

How soon the boy will be a man,
Yet so much first he needs to understand.
A searching spirit reaching outward from inside
Pleads with me silently to subside.

I’ll try again despite his clamber and rude calls,
All those things that build such solid walls,
To hear with love and cease this fruitless fight,
Remembering the tenderness I feel tonight.

-Doug Garrett

The Value of Truth and Repentance

John 8:32And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.”

These seemingly insignificant 12 words containing 2 promises that could easily be overlooked as having very little practical consequence to those of us who feel we are already free and emancipated. But a closer review discloses a host of things we may never have considered before. 

Truth makes an immense difference to those who are trying to live by it. Let’s take, for example, the truth about repentance.

Repentance Infers There is a God

If there was no God, there would be no right and no wrong. Good and evil would be meaningless. An ultimate judgment would pose no threat to our behavior. Justice and mercy would remain stillborn. Our daily lives would lack motivation, requiring neither a good or evil response to the plight of our fellow men. Our sole concern would be for ourselves, our needs, our survival. 

Repentance Infers There is a Standard  

There is a standard against which we are being measured and found wanting. We are responsible and will be held accountable for our actions. If we are failing, we can change. We can become better through the application of correct principles if we know them. 

Repentance Infers a Current and Final Judgment 

A current judgment reveals our line of trajectory. For instance, how we are doing? Where we are going? How well are we informed? How prepared are we for the final judgment? When we contemplate these answers, it provides more motivation for us to improve ourselves.  

A final judgment is inferred because for what purpose would repentance, correction and a realignment to God’s will serve if in the end it made no difference? No one  would suffer any penalty or gain any blessing for the extreme effort required to be obedient. The scriptures make ample references to the great and final judgment (Alma 40: 11- 14 being perhaps the most explicit), when all of us will, after we have passed from this life, stand before that God who made us, to be held accountable for our deeds in this life.

Repentance Infers Immediate Results 

The way we affect others has a proportional and direct effect upon ourselves. This means if we change for better, the greater will be our influence on others to help them improve their lives too. And the more we help others, the greater the change for good we will experience in own lives. We need not wait until we receive the final judgment to receive blessings. They are unfolded to us the moment we bestow them upon others.

Repentance Infers We Can Change 

We can change from being uninformed and evil to knowing truth and doing good. We can overcome the handicaps of ignorance and poverty through obedience to Christ. The majority of the world has not been taught the concept of repentance. Instead they know only the false practice of confession of sins to avoid the penalties their wrong doings would otherwise bring. There will be justice and compensation for all wrongs done by us, or to us by others. The solution to avoiding the penalties of sin is not just to confess them, but to repent of them and do them no more.

Isaiah 1:18 “Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.”

Knowing the truth changes everything we need to understand about why and what we do. The closer to truth our knowledge is, the closer to Godlike behavior we will practice.

Truth will bring hope to all those who embrace it and freedom to all enslaved by ignorance. It can bring peace and understanding, both to us and to the world.

– Doug Garrett

Seeking Forgiveness

We learn the following when the Lord made this statement regarding forgiveness:

D&C 64: 10 “I the Lord will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you, it is required to forgive all men.” 

But the act of forgiving or receiving forgiveness, is not easy. It is complex and requires many preliminary steps. Recognition, remorse, revealing and reconciliation all come before there can be rejoicing. 

When one seeks forgiveness from his fellowman, he is placed in the humble position of a beggar petitioning for something that is beyond his power to acquire for himself. He is totally dependent upon someone else to show mercy before the act can be consummated.

In this respect, forgiveness is a contract between two parties: the transgressor and the transgressed. Failure to reach a mutual agreement on the conditions of the contract means both parties lose. The transgressor remains in debt or bondage, while the transgressed remains unrequited or unreconciled, perhaps even drowning in bitter resentment and soul destroying hurt. Both are chained to each other and cannot move away from the original sin.

Yet the moment forgiveness is fully granted and joyfully received, both are immediately set free. The transgressor is relieved of the burden of his debts and transgression. The transgressed has also removed his own unbearable burden by the very act of forgiving and forgetting. Both come away with an immense feeling of relief and freedom because they are unyoked. They can now move on with life.

It is easier to understand why God would command us to “ forgive all men” if we accept that we, unlike God, are not perfect. The process of becoming perfect requires adopting and mastering the qualities which make him “God” in the first place. Mercy, love, compassion, understanding and humility are required to forgive others who trespass against us while living life. They are also the qualities we must perfect to become as God is. The bigger the debt or offense, the greater the need we personally have for these God like qualities. As we embrace the act of granting mercy, love, compassion and understanding unto to the least of those who seek our forgiveness, we become more worthy to be the recipients of mercy, love compassion and understanding from God – the very being to whom we all stand in debt. The more often we go through the process of forgiveness, the more we progress and qualify to be reconciled with God. Someday, whether we are the transgressor or the transgressed, we will stand in his presence, petitioning for his forgiveness. 

D&C 64: 9 “Wherefore I say unto you that ye ought to forgive one another, for he who foregiveth not his brother his trespasses, standeth condemned before the Lord, for there remaineth in him the greater sin.”

D&C 64: 11 “ And ye ought to say in your hearts – Let God judge between me and thee and reward thee according to thy deeds”

– Doug Garrett

What Offering Will be Enough?

The world tells those that are seeking a deeper personal understanding to go out and find themselves. To set out on a such a mission is a misguided, self-centered concept, fraught with dangerous experimentation. Very often it involves exploring chemical substances, permissive sexual behaviors, extreme sports and/or poor life styles. Notice how these choices that seem to hold out a promise of finding one’s self also include addictive practices which bring instead unsuspected and unbelievable consequences. Misery, loneliness, hopelessness and pain are often the rewards.

Many people who set out on a quest to find themselves unfortunately find they have lost themselves in the very process.

The Lord’s council on the other hand is to “ Lose ourselves in his cause of serving others”.

Matthew 16:25 “For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.”

He also promises us that in the process, we will discover ourselves. The only thing that can help us understand ourselves better, which is really what “ finding ourselves” is supposed to mean, is serving others.

Alma 37: 34 “Teach them to never be weary of good works, but to be meek and lowly in heart; for such shall find rest to their souls.”

Through this process, we discover that no matter how poorly off or mistreated we believe ourselves to be, there are others who are worse off. No matter how little we may think we have to offer, there are others whose needs are much greater – and they desperately need us to share. Only when we serve others do we find those who need us to reach out and include them in our lives.

The happiest people, no matter where in the world they live, are those who lose themselves serving others, while the most miserable people in the world are those obsessed with helping themselves.

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John 12: 24Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit. “

This is a very baffling statement unless you know something about plant biology.

Every seed that is ever planted in the ground goes through a special experience very like a ritual sacrifice. First the seed’s physical composition changes. As it begins to sprout, the seed becomes itself a food source for the emerging sprout. The tender sprout is totally dependent on the seed to sustain it until it can develop its own independent root system. By the time the sprout has become a little plant with independent roots, it has used up every last bit of resources the seed contained. And the seed has died. This is the sacrifice demanded of the seed if it is going to produce a new plant. If the seed is not prepared to die, it must then live alone, because there is no other way to produce another like unto it. The sacrifice of one seed, brings to life many seeds which in turn yields many thousands more that bear the same future responsibility.

You can perhaps anticipate where Christ was going with this analogy. He was referring to the sacrifice he himself was about to make: He offered his life so that we may live.

If he did not die, we would not have eternal life. He would not have fulfilled the measure of his own creation and we would all be doomed to remain physically and spiritually dead forever,

We know he fulfilled all that The Father required of him. His offering was enough and it was accepted.

If Christ gave the ultimate offering so that we could have life, what is required of us in return? Surely we also, must be required to make an offering to fulfill the measure of our creation. What sort of an offering should it be? Perhaps the real question is: “What offering will be enough?” 

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Years ago I met a man and his wife in Montreal. They had a beautiful and talented daughter who went away to university in Utah to complete her education. While there she met a young man from her hometown. He offered to give her a ride. Unfortunately, his careless driving caused an accident in which she was killed and he was badly injured.

Her grieving parents went to Utah to make arrangements to have her body returned to Montreal. While there, they learned the young man was still in intensive care. They could have just ignored the situation. Or they might have visited him to vent their grief and anger. After all, it was his fault that their daughter was gone.

They did neither.

Instead, when they found out that the young man had no family, no insurance and no money, these parents paid his outstanding bill, and brought him back home with them. 

For months they bathed his wounds and changed his bandages. They fed him and encouraged him through his guilt and grief, while still suffering from their own. After almost a year, they discovered the service they so humbly offered to this boy, had healed their hearts in the process. They had laid their offering on the alter and it had been sufficient. 

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Each of us has a mission or purpose. It absolutely involves service. We may not discover what it is until we are deeply involved in it. Our offering will be enough when, by our nature and our faith, we rise to fulfill that presented need. 

If we serve where ever and whenever we are called, spontaneously, eagerly and with joy, then surely it will become part of our nature to do so always. Then we will have become what he wanted us to be.

The hymn suggests:

“It may not be on the mountain height
Or over the stormy sea,
It may not be at the battle’s front
My Lord will have need of me.
But if, by a still, small voice he calls
To paths that I do not know,
I’ll answer, dear Lord, with my hand in thine:
I’ll go where you want me to go.”

(Text: Mary Brown, 1856–1918)

May I add…

I’ll do what you want me to do,  dear Lord,
Whatever may be your request.
I’ll serve with my heart and my soul ’till you say,
“My Child, enter in to my rest.”

Our offering becomes enough when we give all we have.

-Doug Garrett